by Suzanne Richardson

 I grew up in church and was even baptized when I was about 14 years old. I really learned a lot from my Sunday School teacher and thought I had a pretty good knowledge of the Bible and what I was supposed to do. That seemed to change by the time I graduated from high school. I went to work and seemed to lose interest in church and the Bible. I dropped my boyfriend that I had and started running around with the girls which led to a different kind of life.

 I moved to a different state with my family and started going back to church which is where I met my husband. He wasn't very strong in the church and so we both quit going after awhile. I had a lot of problems in my marriage as that was really not what I wanted, but married as I thought that was what I was supposed to do. It was really hard on my husband because he really did not know what the problem was. We later got divorced after about 14 years of marriage. At least there were no children in the marriage that would have suffered because of me and the life style that I thought I wanted.

 After my divorce in 1986, I started back in the Gay life and continued that for the next 20 years. It seemed like something was still missing in my life and I just couldn't put my finger on it. Then things started happening in 2005 that I just couldn't explain and wondered about. I know this part seems strange, but I have one of those hand yahtzee games that I would play all the time when I got off work. My score kept coming up 316 a lot! After a few months of that I knew someone was trying to tell me something but I just wasn't ready.

 In 2006, July 17, when I got to work that morning at 5:00 AM to do my paperwork, I got very ill and was not able to stand long. I had to call one of my co-workers to come and fill in for me and went home. I went back to work 2 days later and the same thing happened again and I had to quit work. No longer was I able to work. I lost my home that I had just purchased 3 years prior to that and did not know where I was going to live or even survive without food or money.

 I knew then what the 316 meant and had been ignoring. I started going back to church and was baptized again, but this time for the right reason, gave up the life style that I knew was wrong all this time, and have a God that forgives and loves me and kept waiting for me to return.

 Everyone told me that it would take me forever to get on Social Security Disability, but God kept blessing me. When I was looking for help and it seemed like I was taking 1 step forward and 2 steps back, God was there. I was on Disability within six months, moved in with my mother and Step-dad. The house they had bought several years ago, we changed part of it for an apartment for me if I ever needed it. God knew what he was doing then! I found a good doctor at a clinic that takes good care of me.

 I had to move away from my Church family to where God directed me to go for my health. I know that he has yet another purpose for me and wasn't willing to give up on me.

 John 3:16 is what saved me. For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten son, that whosoever shall believeth, shall not perish, but have everlasting life.

 He loves us that much. Thank you Lord.

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